PART 2
When Two Are Like One
Identical
twins don’t make obvious evolutionary sense; fraternal twins at least
have the benefit of genetic diversity, improving the odds that at least
one might survive whatever misfortune comes their way. And yet, in their
utter inexplicability, identical twins have helped elucidate our most
basic understanding of why, and how, we become who we are. By studying
the overlap of traits in fraternal twins (who share, on average, 50
percent of their genes) and the overlap of those traits in identical
twins (who share 100 percent of their genes), scientists have, for more
than a century, been trying to tease out how much variation within a
population can be attributed to heredity and how much to environment.
‘‘Twins have a special claim upon our attention,’’ wrote Sir Francis
Galton, a British scientist who in the late 19th century was the first
to compare twins who looked very much alike with those who did not
(although science had not yet distinguished between identical and
fraternal pairs). ‘‘It is, that their history affords means of
distinguishing between the effects of tendencies received at birth, and
those that were imposed by the special circumstances of their after
lives.’’
Galton,
who was Darwin’s cousin, is at least as well known for coining the term
‘‘eugenics’’ as he is for his innovative analysis of twins (having
concluded, partly from his research, that healthy, intelligent people
should be given incentives to breed more). His scientific successor,
Hermann Werner Siemens, a German dermatologist, in the early 1920s
conducted the first studies of twins that bear remarkable similarity to
those still conducted today. But he also drew conclusions that for
decades contaminated the strain of research he pioneered; he supported
Hitler’s arguments in favor of ‘‘racial hygiene.’’ In seeking genetic
origins for various traits they considered desirable or undesirable,
these researchers seemed to be treading dangerously close to the pursuit
of a master race.
‘So we were swapped,’ Wilber said, shrugging. ‘You’re my brother, and you’ll be my brother until the day I die.’
Despite
periods of controversy, twins studies proliferated. Over the last 50
years, some 17,000 traits have been studied, according to a
meta-analysis led by Tinca Polderman, a Dutch researcher, and Beben
Benyamin, an Australian, and published this year in the journal Nature
Genetics. Researchers have claimed to divine a genetic influence in such
varied traits as gun ownership, voting preferences, homosexuality, job
satisfaction, coffee consumption, rule enforcement and insomnia.
Virtually wherever researchers have looked, they have found that
identical twins’ test results are more similar than those of fraternal
twins. The studies point to the influence of genes on almost every
aspect of our being (a conclusion so sweeping that it indicates, to some
scientists, only that the methodology must be fatally flawed).
‘‘Everything is heritable,’’ says Eric Turkheimer, a behavioral
geneticist at the University of Virginia. ‘‘The more genetically related
a pair of people are, the more similar they are on any other outcome of
interest’’ — whether it be personality, TV watching or political
leaning. ‘‘But this can be true without there being some kind of
specific mechanism that is driving it, some version of a
Huntington’s-disease gene. It is based on the complex combined effects
of an unaccountable number of genes.’’
Arguably
the most intriguing branch of twins research involves a small and
unusual class of research subjects: identical twins who were reared
apart. Thomas Bouchard Jr., a psychologist at the University of
Minnesota, began studying them in 1979, when he first learned of Jim and
Jim, two Ohio men reunited that year at age 39. They not only looked
remarkably similar, but had also vacationed on the same Florida beach,
married women with the same first name, divorced those women and married
second wives who also shared the same name, smoked the same brand of
cigarette and built miniature furniture for fun. Similar in personality
as well as in vocal intonation, they seemed to have been wholly formed
from conception, impervious to the effects of parenting, siblings or
geography. Bouchard went on to research more than 80 identical-twin
pairs reared apart, comparing them with identical twins reared together,
fraternal twins reared together and fraternal twins reared apart. He
found that in almost every instance, the identical twins, whether reared
together or reared apart, were more similar to each other than their
fraternal counterparts were for traits like personality and, more
controversial, intelligence. One unexpected finding in his research
suggested that the effect of a pair’s shared environment — say, their
parents — had little bearing on personality. Genes and unique
experiences — a semester abroad, an important friend — were more
influential.
As
pure science, the study of twins reared apart has troubled some
researchers. Those twins either self-select and step forward or become
known to researchers through media reports — which are less inclined to
cover identical twins who do not look remarkably alike, who did not
marry and divorce women of the same name or choose the same obscure
hobby. Identical twins who do not look remarkably alike, of course, are
also less likely to be spotted and reunited in the first place. And few
studies of twins, whether reared apart or reared together, have included
twins from extremely different backgrounds.
‘‘Every
study will have its critics,’’ says Nancy Segal, a professor at
California State University, Fullerton, who worked with Bouchard from
1982 to 1991. ‘‘But studying twins reared apart separates genetic and
environmental effects on behavior better than any research design I
know.’’
Segal
has been studying Chinese twins (fraternal and identical pairs reared
together and reared apart) since 2003. In several books about twins,
Segal has merged science with human-interest tales, walking readers
through statistical evidence but also highlighting anecdotal details:
the identical twins reared apart who each showed up for research wearing
seven rings, or the reared-apart sisters who rubbed their noses the
same way and called it ‘‘squidging.’’
Last
October, Yesika Montoya, a Colombian psychologist who is now a social
worker at Columbia University, saw on Facebook a video clip from a Colombian newsmagazine program,
Séptimo Día, which confirmed through DNA testing that the four young
men were two sets of identical twins. She got in touch with Segal, whom
she knew only by reputation. She then approached the young men, who
agreed to be the subject of their research.
No
matter how fascinating, the two sets of twins represent a sample of
only two. But to Segal, the possibilities were dizzying, unique. In no
other family she knew of were there so many kinds of twin pairings to
analyze and compare: Jorge and Carlos, Jorge and William, Jorge and
Wilber and so on. ‘‘It’s an experiment within an experiment,’’ she said,
comparing it to one of those Russian dolls: Crack open one, and there
would still be another, and another, and another.
The
twins knew the research would require them to submit, over the course
of a week in March, to several probing interviews, individually and in
pairs, as well as hours holed up in a conference room filling out
questionnaires. There would be questions about their homes, lives and
education, as well as personality and intelligence tests. Segal told
them that she was interested in writing a book about them (Montoya would
later collaborate with her), and the young men were enthusiastic
subjects.
William
had only one condition for his participation: He insisted that Segal
and Montoya visit the home in which he grew up in Santander. Without
that, he thought, they could never really understand who he was. He did
worry, however, that if he told Segal and Montoya how long it would take
to get to Santander, they would never agree to go. So he dodged and
evaded whenever the subject of travel time came up. It’s a four- or
five-hour drive, William would say, and then add, almost as an
afterthought, that when the road could get them no closer to their
destination, they would get out and walk. For how long? A little while,
William would say; it might be a little muddy. How muddy? Maybe, he
would suggest, it would be easier if at that point Segal traveled by
horse. Would she, by any chance, rather ride a horse? Segal, a woman in
her early 60s who grew up in the Bronx, said no.
The Importance of Will
Around
9:30 a.m. on March 29, three cars pulled into La Paz, a dusty town
whose few small streets offer sweeping views of the Andes. The group —
Segal, Montoya, the two sets of twins, translators and assorted friends
and family members — had already been on the road for six hours. They
settled in for a traditional breakfast of bone broth and hot chocolate
at a diner in town. Jorge and William sat next to each other along one
side of a wooden table, while Carlos sat across the way. Wilber sat with
Segal and Montoya. While everyone ate breakfast, Carlos took out his
phone and called up a picture of him and Jorge. ‘‘I love my brother,
even though I only show it when I’m drunk,’’ Carlos said.
‘‘See?’’ In
the picture, Carlos was puckered up, giving Jorge a big kiss on the
cheek.
William
watched Carlos, feeling annoyed. Wilber, he had often thought, was the
same way: He took William entirely for granted, showing his love only on
very rare occasions — when, for example, he thought one of them could
die. They served in the same platoon in the military, and when they
entered a particularly dangerous zone, Wilber would say to him,
white-faced: ‘‘May God be with you, my brother. I love you.’’ William
knew Wilber loved him; but both Jorge and William wished that the
brothers they grew up with had been more supportive, more expressive —
the way William and Jorge now were with each other. They often called
each other right before they fell asleep, just to say good night.
The
four young men all knew one another well by then. Over the past six
months, they had gone on outings and shared meals, talked about women,
family, money, values. Even weeks in, each had stared, still unnerved
and amazed, into the eyes of his identical brother. They had measured,
assessed and inspected. They stood back to back, comparing height (those
raised in the city were taller than those from the country); Carlos had
crushed Wilber in a food-eating contest, William had vanquished them
all when they arm-wrestled. In the stands at a soccer match, Carlos
watched, in fascination, as William’s hand reached down his jeans to
scratch his backside: Jorge did the same thing, Carlos told Wilber. Over
dinner one night, Jorge noted that Carlos and Wilber both leaned in at
the same odd angle toward their plates. Jorge felt comfortable gently
correcting his identical twin’s grammar; Carlos took seriously such
brotherly responsibilities as instructing Wilber in how to approach an
attractive Bogotá woman at a bar or how to down a shot of tequila. The
twins from Santander were amazed that neither of their city counterparts
had ever fired a gun, which they quickly remedied on a visit to the
country.
Carlos
did feel immediately at ease with his newfound twin, he had to admit.
Wilber did not try to tell him what to do when he talked about his love
life, the way Jorge did; he just listened and supported him. Yes, they
understood each other: their manly pride around women, their furious
response to their brothers’ incessant teasing. But Carlos was also
unnerved by Wilber’s Carlosness. His twin’s very existence refuted a
concept dear to him: his sense of his own uniqueness. Having grown up so
different from his other family members, he had come to pride himself
on his individualism; now, as an identical twin, he was part of a rare
subset of humans whose replicability was embarrassingly on display.
Once, Wilber posted on Facebook a picture of himself back in Santander,
bare-chested in a river, triumphantly holding two chickens he had just
killed. With his hair wet and slicked down like Carlos’s, the campesino
in the picture looked too much like Carlos for his comfort. ‘‘Take that
thing down,’’ he told Wilber. ‘‘People will think it’s me.’’
Far
from believing that he had found his perfect other half, Carlos felt
lonelier than ever. For all of Jorge’s reassurances, he could feel Jorge
drifting toward William. The two now wore the same sneakers, shaved
their goatees the same way. On weekends, Jorge often went to William’s
butcher shop and got behind the counter, waiting on customers, so he
could spend time with his twin. He sometimes slept at Wilber and
William’s tiny apartment, while Carlos slept at home. Sometimes Carlos
told himself, with a strange twisted relief, that he was glad this had
all happened after his mother died; the jealousy he would have felt had
she embraced William as Jorge had would have been more than he could
take.
Carlos
knew that Jorge was attuned to his sadness, that he even wanted to
help. But whenever they tried to talk about it, they fell into mutually
irritating old patterns. Carlos felt as though Jorge dismissed his
concerns; Jorge felt frustrated that nothing he said could assuage
Carlos’s sense of isolation. But Jorge tried. Six weeks or so after the
reunion, Jorge asked Carlos for a photo of himself. That Saturday, Jorge
went to a tattoo parlor. He already had a tattoo of his mother over his
heart. Now he sat in a chair for four painful hours as his favorite
practitioner needled his brother’s image permanently into his flesh,
just inches away from the image of his mother. He came home and lifted
his shirt to show Carlos the work, his skin still bloody and swollen
from the violence of the needle. It was, Carlos would later remark, with
tears in his eyes, the best present anyone had ever given him. It
brought him some measure of peace.
At
breakfast in La Paz, however, Carlos felt that Jorge was provoking him
once again. Moments after Carlos pulled out that photo, Jorge turned to
him and brought up a sensitive subject the two had already discussed in
many late-night conversations: Who would Carlos have turned out to be
had he been raised in Santander?
Come
on, Carlos, Jorge said — look around. Do you really think that if you
had been raised here you would have ended up an accountant or even a
professional?
Carlos
refused to concede Jorge’s point. Who was to say he wouldn’t have found
a way to go to school, to get his degree, to be working in the very
same firm where he had only just recently been promoted?
William
said nothing, but his face took on a hard cast. Carlos had no idea, he
thought, how far a strong will could or could not get you. William had
that strong will, had tried to exert it in every way, desperate to get
to that petty-officer training. First, he had moved to Bogotá to study
for his high-school degree. He managed to pass the test, but his score
was low — eight months of part-time cramming could not make up for all
those years of lost schooling. He made it only onto a waiting list for
the petty-officer training, but that did not deter him. He packed up,
left Bogotá and took a long bus ride to the barracks where the
leadership course was being offered. When William arrived at the
barracks, a commanding officer recognized him. ‘‘Those who persevere
succeed,’’ the officer told him. The commanding officer managed to pull
some strings on William’s behalf, but as they were going through the
paperwork, officials discovered that William had already been discharged
and compensated by the military for a disease he contracted while
serving. The compensation made him ineligible for re-enlistment. There
were no more strings to be pulled; he could never be a petty officer; it
was over. He would have to go home. But hadn’t the commanding officer
told him that those who persevere succeed? For five days, William stayed
past his welcome, hiding and mingling among the groups of soldiers. He
hoped that things would sort themselves out, but more than that, he
could not bring himself to leave: Leaving meant he had given up. On the
sixth day, a sympathetic but fully armed officer accompanied him to the
bus station and personally put him on a bus back to Bogotá.
William
knew that Carlos was unfamiliar with that part of his history. Carlos
probably did not know that William, as a 6-year-old, used to walk with
his mother to this very town, La Paz, for five hours each way, just to
buy groceries; they would spend the night at a kind woman’s place in
town and then walk home again, groceries on their backs. And Carlos
could not know, could never really know, how many hours William had
spent hacking sugar cane with a machete as a teenager, his skin crawling
from the heat and the itchy scraps of stalk, carrying 50 pounds of cane
at a time, mindless, painful, strenuous work. Carlos had spent those
same years, William knew, flirting with girls at an excellent public
high school, playing basketball with his friends, racking up points on
some video game
Carlos
was wrong, William felt certain. Sometimes, a will was not enough. Had
he grown up in Santander, Carlos would not be an accountant on the rise
right now. And Carlos’s insistence on that point felt, to William, like
an insult to all he had endured — a life he had endured, no less, in
Carlos’s place.
When City Meets Country
After
breakfast, the cars left La Paz, driving on serpentine, stone-strewn
roads with lush palm fronds and ferns closing in overhead. With the heat
of the sun now strong, one driver kept mopping his sweating face with a
bandanna he borrowed from one of the relatives in the car, as if he was
physically exhausted from the stress of maneuvering the vehicle over
riverbeds and around ditches. Finally, around 11:30 a.m., the caravan
stopped near a large gazebo in a grassy field. Everyone piled out of the
vehicles. It was time to walk.
Segal
had brought a bright purple rolling suitcase, which held materials she
hoped to use that day for interviews and research with William and
Wilber’s family; their brother, Ancelmo, now lived in their childhood
home, but their parents and other relatives would also be there to
celebrate Ancelmo’s birthday and see the twins. It became clear that the
grassy path would not be suitable for luggage rolling, so William, who
had carried far heavier loads on this journey before, easily slung the
purple suitcase onto his shoulders.
The
group started making its way along the path, which briefly lurched
uphill. William was moving at high speed, despite the suitcase. He
called out that as strong as he was, Jorge was every bit as strong,
although it seemed unlikely that that could possibly true. ‘‘But not
Carlos,’’ William said. ‘‘Carlos is not as strong.’’ William took a few
more steps, then turned around as if something had occurred to him.
‘‘Why shouldn’t Carlos carry it?’’ he said. He backtracked until he
reached Carlos, pushed the suitcase at him and then quickly headed off.
The
path tracked across a grassy meadow and then started a long, steep
descent. Within minutes, the path was made of mud — rich, claylike mud
that was two feet deep in some patches. Carlos, who was always
impeccably dressed, stepped carefully. But his Adidas basketball
sneakers were quickly soaked with oozing earth.
Carlos
was as uncomfortable emotionally as he was physically. He had visited
Santander twice since the reunion — once for a birthday party for all
four brothers in La Paz and once to visit his biological parents, José
del Carmen Cañas (known as Carmelo) and Ana Delina Velasco, at the home
where they now lived. But he felt ill at ease on both visits. He knew
William thought he had behaved churlishly, resisting the friendly
overtures of his extended family. But there were just too many people
around — locals, cousins, every one of them, it had seemed, wanting a
photograph or a hug or some other sign of a connection that he himself
did not feel. How was he supposed to get to know his biological parents
when there was always a crowd around? When he met Carmelo and Ana for
the very first time at William and Wilber’s apartment, a camera crew for
a Colombian newsmagazine show had been with them in the room. As he
embraced his biological parents, they were weeping profusely. He was
moved when he felt Carmelo’s arms around him — he had never really known
his own father, who died not long after his mother did. But something
about Ana’s tears left him feeling detached, calm. He had had a mother,
and a very good one at that. ‘‘Don’t cry,’’ he said to Ana, wiping her
tears. ‘‘These are God’s ways.’’
It
was high noon in Santander. Carlos picked his way through the mud,
which splattered and quickly baked hard onto his legs in the sun. Then
Carlos — Carlos, who was so vain about his clothing, fussy about fit,
who was always brushing at the cuff of his pants to rid it of some
imaginary lint — let out a howl. His foot had sunk deep in the mud.
Slowly, with the help of someone from the area who was walking alongside
him, he began to extricate it. There was a loud suctioning sound:
Sludge coated his bare leg well past his knee.
More
than an hour later, sweaty, exhausted, filthy, Carlos arrived with the
group at William and Wilber’s childhood home. It had no toilet, no
drywall, no paint, just wooden sides and a wood-burning stove with a
pipe jutting out of the roof. Carlos approached Carmelo with a smile:
The two hugged warmly. But then there was silence; neither seemed to
know what to say. William was standing close by, watching Carlos and his
father. William looked pristine, except for a little mud on his boots.
He wore a striped purple button-down shirt for the occasion; Carlos was
dressed in a black baseball cap with a Batman symbol on it, a tank top
and sunglasses. He had not even had a moment to catch his breath when
William quickly batted his cap. ‘‘Take off your hat and sunglasses,’’
William told Carlos. ‘‘Try to really be here.’’
Carlos
watched Jorge, who was moving easily through the crowd, ingratiating
himself with William and Wilber’s family in a way that Carlos still
could not. Carlos was still annoyed about the conversation they had at
breakfast. Jorge seemed to want him to make some grand emotional
statement about how lucky he had been in the swap, how much tougher his
lot would have been had he, in fact, been raised in Santander. It was
not as if he hadn’t thought hard, lying awake many nights, about what
his fate would have been had he been raised with this biological family.
Two of William and Wilber’s brothers had died very young, one in a gun
accident and one in an ambush while serving in the military.
He might
not even be alive if he had grown up here. Maybe it was easy to be a
good guy in Bogotá. Maybe if he had grown up in Santander, he would have
joined the guerrillas, who were popular a decade earlier but also
brutal. Far from believing in the inevitability of his professional
success, he worried about whether his character, in that alternate life,
would have withstood the forces around him.
But no, he was not going to say all of that at breakfast, in front of a bunch of people. That was not who he was.
PART 3
The Myth of Identical Twins
At
the moment that a sperm penetrates an egg, that single-cell zygote is
what is known as totipotent: It is pure potential. It has in it the
makings of an eyebrow’s curve, a heart’s thick muscle, a neuron’s
electrochemical power; it has in it the finicky instructional manual
that will direct the building of the body’s every fiber and the
regulation of those fibers. But that one cell splits into two, and
instantly, lights begin to go out, potential dims. In order for that one
cell to become a tiny bit of flesh in a heart, and not the hair of an
eyebrow, one or more of its genetic signaling pathways must shut down.
The result is differentiation, a steady process of elimination that
allows complex biological universes to be built. Every time a group of
cells divides, each one becomes more like one thing, less like another.
By
the time that embryo is five or six days old, which is when a majority
of fateful twin splits occur, some of those cells, by chance, go to one
twin and some to the other. This means that the expression of some genes
in one of those future twins is already, in subtle ways, likely to be
different from the expression of genes in the other future twin,
theorizes Harvey Kliman, the director of the reproductive and placental
research unit at the Yale School of Medicine. From the moment that most
identical twins separate, they may well have different epigenetics, a
term that refers to the way genes are read and expressed, depending on
environment. They are already different products of their environment,
the environment being whatever uterine conditions rendered them separate
beings in the first place.
The
casual observer is fascinated by how similar identical twins are, but
some geneticists are more interested in identifying all the reasons they
might differ, sometimes in significant ways. Why might one identical
twin be gay or transgender and not the other? Why do identical twins,
born with the same DNA, sometimes die of different diseases at different
times in their lives? Their environments must be different, but which
aspect of their environment is the one that took their biology in a
different direction? Smoking, stress, obesity — those are some of the
factors that researchers have been able to link to specific changes in
the expression of specific genes. They expect, in time, to find
hundreds, possibly thousands, of others.
The
meta-analysis published this spring in Nature Genetics, which examined
50 years of studies of twins, arrived at a conclusion about the impact
of heredity and environment on human beings’ lives. On average, the
researchers found, any particular trait or disease in an individual is
about 50 percent influenced by environment and 50 percent influenced by
genes. But that simple ratio does not capture our complicated systems of
genetic circuitry, the way our genes steadily interact with the
environment, switching on, switching off, depending on the stimulus,
sometimes with lasting results that will continue on in our genome,
passed to the next generation. How an individual’s genes respond to that
environment — how they are expressed — creates what scientists call an
epigenetic profile.
Before
she left for Bogotá, Segal contacted Jeffrey Craig, who studies
epigenetics at Murdoch Childrens Research Institute in Australia, to ask
if he would analyze the epigenetics of Carlos, Jorge, Wilber and
William, using saliva swabs she would obtain while she was there.
Craig
has analyzed the epigenetic profiles of 34 identical and fraternal
twins at birth, collecting swabs from their inner cheeks. To Craig, it
was noteworthy that in some cases — not many, but some — the epigenetic
profile of one newborn twin was more similar to an unrelated baby than
to the identical twin with whom that baby shared a womb. Structural
differences in the womb could possibly account for it, Craig says — a
thicker umbilical cord for one than the other (there are, in fact, two
cords) or an awkward site of connection for the umbilical cord on the
placenta. But he recognizes that there could be additional factors still
in the realm of guesswork. Perhaps one twin is farther from the sound
of the mother’s heart, its reassuring steady beat, sending that child on
a slightly different life course.
Segal
and Craig were eager to see the epigenetic results for the Colombian
twins. Whose epigenetic profile, they wondered, would look more alike?
The biologically unrelated twins who shared an environment — Segal calls
them virtual twins — or the ones whose DNA was the same?
A
sample of four subjects could only raise questions, not answer them.
But epigenetic testing on larger samples of twins reared apart could one
day provide a valuable resource for epigenetic science, says Kelly
Klump, who is the co-director of the Michigan State University Twin
Registry. ‘‘You can’t look at how the environment will change the
function of the genome without holding constant the genome,’’ she says.
‘‘Identical twins allow you to do that.’’ Given how hard it is to find
identical twins raised apart, twins researchers working in epigenetics
have mostly been focusing on the identical twins who show difference.
Tim Spector, a professor of genetic epidemiology at King’s College
London, is generating a huge global registry for identical twins in
which only one twin has, for example, diabetes or autism.
Bouchard
was influential in convincing his fellow researchers, as well as the
public, that some significant part of who we are is influenced by DNA,
which was hardly a given when he started his work. Spector and Craig, by
contrast, are trying to identify how, exactly, we change in response to
the environment. Their essential question is different: How can science
identify genes that have been flicked on or off, with potentially
harmful results, so they can be switched back the other way? Traditional
twin studies were perceived to be seeking the immutable; epigenetic
twin studies try to clarify what, in us, is subject to change — and more
specifically, what mechanisms make that change happen.
Falling Into a Hole
A
local politician had accompanied the group on the hike to Santander.
Along the way, he tried to persuade the group to visit a nearby
attraction: the second-biggest hole in Colombia, a cavernous pit 500
feet wide and 600 feet deep. Locals like to get on their bellies, inch
their way up to its rim and peer down into the abyss.
The
second-biggest hole became a recurring joke among the brothers, but
for Yesika Montoya, the Colombian psychologist, it also became something
of a metaphor for the young men’s experience. She was trying to get
them to identify their feelings about all they had gone through, partly
by recalling the physical sensations that they felt at various stages.
‘‘It was vertigo,’’ Jorge told her, as he described waiting for William
the first time they met. ‘‘I felt a pressure. Like when you go on the
roller coaster and you’re falling.’’
Montoya
imagined that feeling to be like ‘‘going down a hole and not being able
to feel the bottom.’’ She added: ‘‘It never stops. And just when you
have put a foot here or there, you keep going down.’’
The
process of spending time with Segal and Montoya and sharing their life
histories necessarily changed the young men’s experience of their
reunion. Carlos seemed surprised at one point when Segal asked him to
describe the ways in which he and Wilber differed. ‘‘Well, the thing is,
we’ve always focused on what our similarities are,’’ Carlos said. ‘‘We
haven’t actually talked about our differences.’’ He seemed pleased, at
last, to be given the opportunity.
At
the time, Carlos pointed out that he liked older women, while Wilber
liked younger ones. But the answer was, of course, far more complicated.
Carlos was like Wilber in large, sweeping ways, and unlike him in
infinite small ways: the expressions that darted across his and his face
alone, the thoughts and worries that filled his mind. Carlos was, for
better or for worse, more cynical than Wilber, more suave; Wilber was
more joyful around small children, quicker to laugh out loud.
Jorge
and William, too, have obvious differences. Jorge is a dreamer, a
restless traveler, an optimist who believes that ‘‘if you give your best
to the world, it will give its best back.’’ William’s face, more
narrow, more gaunt, reflects a far warier outlook. ‘‘Nothing in life is
easy,’’ he remarked once, a sentiment that you could hardly imagine
Jorge expressing.
Carlos could feel Jorge drifting toward his identical twin. It was making him feel lonelier than ever.
Was
every one of these differences learned? Did some reflect different
epigenetics? Perhaps there might be some extra biological protection
built in for Wilber and Jorge, who, unlike Carlos and William, had been
raised in their biological mothers’ arms. The mother who raised Carlos
loved him, he knew. But he was also aware that a cousin had moved in
with them when they were babies, expressly so that each child could be
the beneficiary of the form of attachment parenting the hospital was
encouraging at the time. Their mother wore Jorge in a sling; it was the
cousin who wore Carlos.
In
May, Carlos told Wilber that he wanted to visit his biological family,
but without crowds of relatives or psychologists or camera crews. And
Wilber passed that on to William. It was becoming easier for William to
accept that Carlos’s reserve on those excursions to Santander was not so
much in reaction to his new family as it was in response to the public
nature of the outings. On a weekend in June when Wilber unfortunately
had to work, William, Jorge and Carlos took a bus to see Carmelo and Ana
for a relaxed, private visit.
Carlos
sat next to William on the bus on their way up and listened as William,
who had become something of a local celebrity in Santander, talked
about his plans to run for City Council in La Paz. Carlos did not think
much of Colombian politicians, but he was impressed by William’s
ambition; he liked that William was taking a class to learn Microsoft
Word. He had discovered, from the questions Segal and Montoya asked,
that Wilber had no intention of returning to school. That disappointed
him; he wanted to talk to Wilber about more than women. He wanted more
for Wilber — wanted more from Wilber, but he was starting to think he might not get it.
Carlos
knew Wilber wanted the two of them to spend more time together. But he
also knew that Wilber, at some level, understood that Carlos was a
solitary soul. Wilber, at any rate, had a life of his own and a new
girlfriend, who had two young children whose photos he showed off, with
admiration, to anyone who would look. The whole experience was less
complicated for Wilber than for the other three brothers — simply
because, as Wilber himself put it, he was not a very complicated person.
For
Carlos, this fourth visit to Santander felt like a fresh start. The
brothers arrived at Ana and Carmelo’s home early in the morning, after
traveling through the night, but Carlos was enjoying the beauty of the
countryside too much to go straight to sleep. Instead, he bathed in a
water tank. He listened to the birds; he was a willing audience to the
family parrot, Roberto, who had a talent for singing ranchera
songs. Then, while his brothers dozed, he wandered into the kitchen,
where Ana, a tiny woman — he had her giggle, he was told, although he
never heard it that way himself — was cleaning a sheep’s head she would
cook for dinner that night. He stood by the kitchen counter, keeping her
company as she worked. He realized it was their first time alone.
They
talked about her health, her aching joints, her back pain. ‘‘You know,
you’ve worked so much your whole life,’’ Carlos told her. ‘‘It’s time
for you to rest. Your children are so big already. Why do you work so
hard for them?’’ The relationship with Ana felt more relaxed, but not
necessarily closer. He told himself it would come in time. Jorge was
always implying that there was something wrong with him for not feeling,
instantly, that powerful, primal connection, that emotional force of
biology and destiny, that William seemed to feel for the mother he never
got to know. Carlos wondered whether he might have drawn closer to Ana
had his own mother been alive to grant some kind of permission. But
maybe it was simpler than that. Maybe he and William were just different
that way.
Moving Forward
Before
starting her research, Segal would not have been surprised if each
young man tested similarly to his identical twin, despite their
different environments. But her preliminary results, she said, show that
on a number of traits, the identical twins were less alike than she
initially anticipated. ‘‘I came away with a real respect for the effect
of an extremely different environment,’’ Segal said.
Perhaps
the results merely indicate that people raised in deeply rural
environments, with little education, take tests in a wholly different
manner from those who attended a university. William, who managed a
small business with competence, at times seemed overwhelmed by the test.
But Segal considered the young men’s story a case history that might
provoke further research, inspiring others to seek out more examples of
twins reared apart with significantly different upbringings, whatever
they were.
Over
the course of the week that the young men spent on Segal’s
questionnaires, they looked back at the past that helped make them who
they were. How many books did they have in their childhood homes? Did
they ever smoke? Did they grow up in families in which people kept their
feelings to themselves? For one week, they stepped out of time to look
backward. But the moment Segal would leave, they would continue on their
usual paths, speeding forward toward some unknown future, colliding
with chance. They sometimes talked about all living together; as four,
William liked to think, they were at their strongest. Like members of
any family, they might drift and then regroup, or find themselves
falling back on the deep comfort of their particular bonds. It is rare
to grow up as a twin at all, part of a primal pair; now each young man
had a second, rare pairing, a second chance at an unusual kind of
closeness. What did that kind of entanglement — a double-doubling —
mean for whom they would each become or what they might achieve?
To
celebrate the end of a week’s worth of research, Segal and Montoya
decided to take the young men dancing one night at a popular Bogotá
steak house with a big dance floor. Jorge and William took turns dancing
with Segal; they smiled gamely and turned and twirled with only
glancing attention to the rhythm. Carlos, in his element, showed Wilber a
few steps; they danced in not-quite-synchrony, side by side, Carlos
with sureness, Wilber staring down at his feet and concentrating.
Occasionally he looked up, as if he was feeling it: He would get the
hang of it soon enough, he knew. ‘‘Wilber has the goods,’’ Montoya said,
watching from the table. ‘‘He just needs the experience.’’ When all the
brothers stopped for more aguardiente, a sugar-cane based liqueur, and sat at the table, they took turns flirting with a young woman who had joined the party.
Here at the club, Carlos was assured, poised, smooth. As the evening wore on and he drank more aguardiente,
his moves got bigger, more daring, until he was showing off a maneuver
that he and a friend had made up one night, a pivot from the waist that
had him leaning so far back that his spine was practically parallel with
the floor, his knees bent and nearly buckling. Carlos called that move
‘‘the Matrix,’’ after a similar backward dodge that the movie’s star,
Keanu Reeves, executes while evading bullets in a parallel universe. As
he leaned all the way back, Carlos looked as if he might lose his
balance altogether. Wilber, William and Jorge quickly surrounded him,
still dancing, a mixture of emotions on their faces: amusement,
irritation, concern. But Carlos was not falling. It only looked that
way, and he managed to right himself.
The
dancing went on as before. The four men seemed to bounce off one
another in different pairs and groupings, splitting off in search of
young women, returning to compare notes before heading out onto the
floor again. They were one, they were two, they were four, merging,
dividing and merging again as the music played, long into the evening.
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